《Why I Write》George Orwell

Sheer egoism – ‘Desire to seem clever, to be talked about, to be remembered after death, to get your own back on grown-ups who snubbed you in childhood, etc. It is humbug to pretend that this is not a motive, and a strong one. Writers share this characteristics with scientists, artists, politicians, lawyers, solders, successful businessmen – in short, with the whole top crust of humanity.’

Aesthetic enthusiasm – ‘Perception of beauty in the external world, or, on the other hand, in words and their right arrangement. Pleasure in the impact of one sound on another, in the firmness of good prose or the rhythm of a good story. Desire to share an experience which one feels is valuable and ought not to be missed.’

Historical impulse – ‘Desire to see things as they are, to find out true facts and store them up for the use of posterity.’

Political purpose – ‘Using the word “political” in the widest possible sense. Desire to push the world in a certain direction, to alter other people’s idea of the kind of society that they should strive after. Once again, no book is genuinely free from political bias. The opinion that art should have nothing to do with politics is itself a political attitude.’

Political language is designed to make lies sound truthful and murder respectable, and to give an appearance of solidity to pure wind.

Reading List

Capote
IQ84
The Little Prince
目送
Freud

Dali
Magritte
一百個比利
我城

白痴
LILY 4 EVER
Annie Hall
秒速五厘米

Susan Sontag

The method especially appeals to people handicapped by a ruthless work ethic – Germans, Japanese and Americans. Using a camera appeases the anxiety which the work driven feel about not working when they are on vacation and supposed to be having fun. They have something to do that is like a friendly imitation of work: they can take pictures.

photographed images do not seem to be statements about the world so much as pieces of it, miniatures of reality that anyone can make or acquire’.It is a slice in time and in effect, is more memorable than moving images for example, videos. It fills the gaps in our mind of the past and present.Even though photography has such effect, there are limits to photographic knowledge of the world. The limitations are that it can never be interpreted ethical or political knowledge. It will always be some kind of sentimentalism, whether cynical or humanist. Our modern day society can be described as a society feeding on aesthetic consumerism. There is an addiction and a need to constantly have reality confirmed and experiences enhanced by photographs.

Donald Kwan R.I.P.

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此刻想法是有點冷血
是有點不近人情
但正如剛才許雨所說
不需要讓別人知道的

事和故事

極度弱智
我一直對後句半知半解
然後今天Mia獨具慧眼地告訴我
那字是a.r.t.i.s.t. artist對吧
救命
為甚麼我會這般文盲

很想跟鄔吹水
發覺我們之間有點隔閡

我清楚自己的複雜性在哪
所有的不安全感
一面無痛呻吟
一面搾取所有神經質賦與的靈感
我似乎拼命想回到過去
其實又不是那麼熱切

我享受所有變態狂想
我享受獨處
當我能成功用鑽牛角尖來令掏空的感覺收窄

嗜血的狂喜
yeah

貞生日
君子之交淡如水

看文學同學的創作
絕對不是my cup of tea
但我欣賞
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鑰匙孔
肚臍眼
謀殺
剖心
剖腹
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螞蟻
女人
男人
性
甜的分泌
子宮
築巢
懷孕
螞蟻月經
蠶食身體
死亡

詩

今天
我收到一首詩
寫着dedicated to L. K. M.

一字一句像往耳渦裏送暖

如果空氣是我們的語言
那是我小時候第一次嗅到宣紙時凝著的空氣

文學
原來可以如此

我心軟了
願意放下所有
卻發現連反顧的機會都被拒絕